that's me staring out my window
  different man than i was before
  i was scared with no hesitation
  kept me running for the door
    when i spoke
  well my words fell away yeah
  into something that i can't deny
  i was confronted by a nasty reputation ???
  a never ending circle washed me up to see the lie
  in my mind that was ever so elusive
  hidden deep beneath a plastic shine
  i had to wonder if i'd ever really figure out
  what it was i was trying to find
  so along was i ever thinking
  did i ever really understand
  i was covered by a wave of confusion
  showing in my shaking hands tonight
  i was in a situation
  did i wanna just take control or run
  but i never checked my opinion
  still just laying silent in the sun
    days away
  the one mistake that i made
  days away
  coming in the air to save me now